How We Get to Be Who We Are in This Universe!

Someone asked me a while ago if they were 'cursed' – because their life appeared to suggest that they were! But no-one is - unless they bring that sense into their own hologram for a specific soul-contract reason - I mean, the feeling of it etc. 
By the way – these are just my opinions - I know nothing any more than anyone else in 3D – and in many cases I know a good deal less but from my studies I can write the following without expecting anyone else to accept it as 'Truth'. We all of us make up our minds about that!
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The thing is; Source (or 'God' or whatever term fits personally) is eternal, perfect in 'His' / 'Her' / 'Its' processes and simply (though in complexity) IS - ALL - there - IS. Being that, then it has always BEEN and all ways will BE. IT IS LIFE - and the balance in Life.
The Bible (and all 'religious' books) contain significant parts of 'the truth' of what IS - but like most 'codes', without all of the information, then it is impossible to 'know' what IS. 
Thus were these 'books' designed to distort and confuse - with just enough 'gnosis'  (knowledge therein contained) for those who came into contact with them to believe the position they were commanded (as in the 10 Commandments etc - and '10' is an unnatural-system number, providing totally different 'results' from the 'natural' number of 12!) the position they were commanded to occupy (interesting terms and words here aren't they? 'Occupy' meaning to 'be at war' or to act as 'an enemy'!).
So - one might / should maybe - ask why would Source / 'God' allow such distortions to occur in the process of perfection which is what IT IS? Why would Source seemingly prevent beings from knowing the 'truth' of all that IS and who they are and where they come from and how they are formed?
Well, let me endeavour to answer that: 
Source doesn't not 'allow' or 'prevent' or 'disagree' or 'take sides' - Source IS and the process of Source is ubiquitous, inexorable and perfect and perfectly and eternally structured. 
We term this 'structure' as being 'sacred-science' or 'geomantic', 'mathematical', 'electro-tonal' or the 'geo-magnetic', 'template-code', 'blueprint' of 'Life' - etc etc. This is how we 'make sense' of it all so that we can understand it in this world. 
In ancient native cultures (and in the higher dimensions of existence where 'enlightenment' – beyond the 7th dimension - is greater than here) there was / is less emphasis on language to make this sense than there is upon intuitive knowing and feeling, collectively and individually.
So how come some know and some don't? How did any of us get to where we have been placed in an environment where 'Truth' is compromised - in any way?
As I said, Source just IS and 'processes' as Source chooses - eternally - in perfection of all that it is and the most intimate aspect of this 'perfection' is . . . Love.
Let's go back then to the Bible et al.
'In the beginning was the word'. As we now know, this means 'Sound' which is the primary template-force in Source for the structures in Source to exist. 
This is an example of the 'Truth' being expressed but in code. Then we had the word,  'light' being introduced, leading to 'life' and the phrase, 'and God saw that it was good'. 
Here we have light in terms of 'vision' being presented. Still it's all in 'code' and the excuse the theologians would make is that men and women back in those days were too stupid to understand anything else - deliberately dumbed down is more like it! Anyway - they weren't - stupid - at all.
So - here's that part of the 'code' cracked:
There is no 'beginning' nor is there an 'end' (of course!) because all that is, exists in one 'moment' and in one 'space' - though the processes of Creation in Source create 'cycles' of creation which give 'beginnings' and 'endings' - but they are not definitive in the sense of ONE 'ending' or ONE 'beginning'. 
To start with all of Source is Consciousness in the form of energy - and all of energy is Consciousness. 
When Source (God - as in the Bible) focuses attention on a point (the 'still-point or 'the still, small voice of . . .') a structure is formed - a specific structure with specific sets of processes and parts. In fact the smallest particle of Source energy-consciousness is known as a 'partiki'. 
There are around 800, billion, billion partiki within the space of any one three-dimensional photon - so - partiki are small! Yet each one is Energy and Consciousness within itself. 
These are the 'building-blocks' of Life (everywhere) as we know it - and as we don't know it! 
There are 3 types of partiki in operation throughout all of Source:
There is, as I've said, Partiki - which is the 'physical' expression of ante-matter or 'the void' - the still voice of God - sometimes known as 'ManU' - or The original Spirit (or androgynous being). This is the tiniest particle of 'Source' or 'God-Consciousness'.
The there is Particum - matter - female – vibration - magnetic - sometimes known as EirA or 'Eve'.
PartikA is the final-third particle and is anti-matter - male – oscillation - electrical - sometimes known as ManA or 'Adam'.
They are all actually electro-tonal (light and sound) scalar standing waves of fission / fusion radiation. (We are only just now beginning to hear more about 'scalar-waves' in our current Earth sciences but they are and always have been, fundamental to the creation of ALL that IS).
A standing wave (everywhere within Source) is a point of energy which holds a fixed point in a grid with many others and there are very specific mathematical relationships and geometrical, geomagnetic interactions between the positioning of these standing columns of wave-form. They oscillate AND vibrate.
'Oscillation' is when the Particum and PartikA actually flash into manifestation - so you could see them - and 'vibration' is when they flash off and go back into the Creation-Point - (the Partiki-point).
When you look at a long line of lights at night - say, on a house at Christmas-time - as they flash they appear to be moving - but actually they aren't - they are just individually flashing on and off - it just looks like they are 'moving'.
The templates upon which matter is built are like that - but they aren't light-bulbs - they are Consciousness in the form of energy that interacts in very specific ways and at very specific angles with other units of similar type and some of an opposite type. The whole of Creation is made this way.
In fact - all of Consciousness is built up of these particles of light and sound which flash on and off in a perpetual motion of fission and fusion at vastly different rates and angles of spin and radiational-movement and there are literally billions of these standing, scalar wave-forms within your body and the body of the Earth and all the planets and in every atom too. They are EVERYWHERE – and they are Conscious!
Your body is packed with these 'wave-people' if you like - so you are not - not ever 'alone' - and they depend upon you - being a larger, grander form of unified consciousness than them - to help them to evolve into higher forms of Consciousness - as you already are. (This is the same as you and your 'higher' selves in other higher, hotter more enlightened dimensional existences).
There is a whole structure to the way 'reality' is built and it is NOT haphazard - at all. There are no 'accidents' in Creation. 
There is a supremely intelligent order and structure within the creation of the Universe and it's been known for eons as the Krist (interesting? The word 'Christ' has been 'taken' from the original and changed!). 
There are two main mathematical 'programmes' that are the primary template programmes or core programmes upon which everything in Creation is based.
They are called: 'the Krist' and 'the Kristallah' and they go together, seamlessly and in perfect conjunction. They represent 24 points of vibration and oscillation of fission and fusion and it's on these that standing scalar-waves form in intimate interwoven patterns that create the dimensional complexities of electro-magnetic energy through which and by which things come into being as individuated forms of Consciousness.
So - (as you already know anyway) - YOU are Source and Source is YOU - you are not separate in any way - you only think you are at certain times and you are NOT and never have been 'cursed' – with or by - anything.  In fact - you are BLESSED! Blessed by and with the love of Source which - because it SO loves you - and every one of the billions and trillions of wave-beings and partiki of which your physical body is formed - is happy for you to have the Free-Will choice to do as you free-will choose in any moment - because Source knows that you cannot NOT ever be part of Source and that wherever you go, whatever you do - even if you choose to return as space-dust - you are loved and blessed and are always - all ways - Source itself and you are sacred.
The whole of Creation – absolutely everywhere – is a hologram which outpictures itself from the Centre-Point of the Original Thought of Source (or God). And as we know; in a hologram, everything that is within the whole is contained within every single part of that whole, which means, of course, that YOU contain all that is – all of Source or God within every part of all that you are.
You are not a 'victim' of Creation – Creation is not something that 'happens' to you but is something that YOU make happen yourself – because YOU are a Creator-Being in every same sense that Source or God is.
You (and me!), or rather this current physical 'expression' that we know as 'you' have been in the density-levels of Source in the source-field for many eons and you have come to be where you are as a unified self-cognitive Consciousness because your higher selves have loved you too as you are learning to love ALL of yourself - yes even in the forms of partiki and electrical 'waves'.
The electro-tonal, standing scalar waves of partiki, particum and partikA of which you are formed are built upon grids which form the fabric of density in any level and especially in a 'heavy' density down here in D3. 
And these scalar wave-forms of light and sound create a hologram-effect through which and in which we - as individuated consciousnesses - may choose to create anything we desire - it isn't of course REAL in the sense that it is permanent or a fixed reality - but it SEEMS as though it is - and we choose whatever we wish to experience so that we may learn more about and enjoy more of . . . our true selves in Source – AS Source.
Source creates through 'intention' and 'attention' upon a fixed moment in Time and Space and we do the same!
Throughout Creation, Source fixes a portion of its attention with intent upon a 'point'  and in that instant that fixed-point in the cosmos 'activates' in the form of the 'Divine Trinity' of Partiki, Particum and PartikA interacting via oscillation and vibration as standing waves of light and sound which 'attract' other similar fixed-points of light and sound thus 'expanding', through replication and assimilation of Source-Energies, their own likenesses.
'Abraham' (NOT the Biblical 'Abraham'!) says that there is a 'Law of Attraction' at work in the universe – and he is (I believe) absolutely right! The fixed-point of attention expands and builds up a 'grid' of similar energies, a network of vibration and oscillation, flashing on and off light and sound which 'attract' more and more of 'themselves' in accordance with the original intent!
We create our perceived world and experience around us in the same way! It IS a holographic universe – and we create it!
Yet as has already been said, this is no 'accident'. There are no accidents in Creation – only 'intention' and 'attention'!
The flows of Source-Energy move through our template-structure and the mathematically structured grids upon which they are based, in accordance with specific mathematical processes and programmes and the templates are designed to accommodate the level or 'quantum' of energy (information) that that particular template-structure is capable of holding. 
Like, if I asked you to suddenly run a marathon, your physical template (body) would (probably!) break-down quickly, wouldn't it? 
Similarly here in dimension 3 - if we input too high or hot a quantum of Source-Energy into our template it would shatter - or burn out fast. 
Actually, that is what the tiny number of human bodies we sometimes hear about 'spontaneously-combusting' –  is an example of; a template shattering and burning out! It DOES happen and is what would happen if we tried, for example, to pass through a time-portal (there are12 major ones in Earth; one of them in the main pyramid in Giza!) without having first strengthened our template-structure and assembled the necessary portions of our DNA, which is a set of codes for activating and maintaining our own personal fission / fusion standing-wave light and sound holographic creative processes!
So - it takes some time and a few specific sequences of creation (inside ourselves) and quite some practise to assemble our DNA and strengthen the template so that it can accept higher and greater amounts of quantum of energy just as it would take some practise for your body to be able to run a marathon!
That's why it is so vital to know how the universe works and its 'laws', (not the Earth-science ways which are essentially only 'physical', matter-science based on finite laws and concepts). 
We are talking here about 'quantum-science - (the science of the very tiny as it impacts upon the very large) and how to affect the reality-field we create each moment (and its workings) via knowledge of the sacred-science codes, of how our template is put together and of how the passage of Source-Energy can be slowly increased through every part of who we are.
This becomes ever more important IF we choose to expand our consciousness and know more - about who we truly are.
The 'flows' of Source-Energy that pass through every single template and particle of everything everywhere, are essentially 'filtered' (in a way) through 'shields' within each atom, being, planet, star, universe et al (we are all the same in essence regardless of our 'size').
These shields in a way 'protect' us (our holographic integrity - physical, mental and emotional bodies) from unwelcome energies (such as the unnatural energies of false sciences as evidenced by the 'Fibonacci' spiral and 'Golden Mean') and also from the higher, faster, hotter, greater quantum energies of the higher dimensions.
Beyond the 12th dimension of plasma light (which is like the 'avatar' dimension wherein our 'avatar' self exists and from whence Jeshua, the 'primary' Jesus - Sananda perhaps originated), beyond this dimension there are no more 'density' dimensions in that they are primal light and sound dimensions of (to us here and now) enormously un-experienceable frequencies of energy which also run through all the grids of everything - but are prevented from passing through our dimensional blend (dimensions 1 / 2 / 3) by the shields we have deployed. 
Without these shields we would be literally shattered - all our templates and axiatonal lines and atoms and particles - would instantly return to space-dust (which is still sacred of course) and then 'begin' again (if so we chose as particles of Consciousness) to move into increasingly expanded states of consciousness as we are indeed right now.
Are there 'issues' down here in the third dimension of us apparently being forced to conform or be 'controlled' by other beings within our own dimensional blends and those immediately beyond us as in the 4th / 5th and 6th dimensions? 
Yes!
It is all part of the holographic choices we have all of us (who experience this) put together of our free-will choice in Source to expand our own personal consciousness. 
We create and experience all facets of the 'victim-victimiser', 'blame-game' 'story' down here which is not natural but which is, through the perfect love of Source (or God), permitted within the construct of Source, because it is what we chose in order that we might know ourselves (and Source) more clearly and infinitely.
In the parable of the Prodigal Son . . . why does the 'master' run down the road to greet and shower kisses upon the returning son who had seemingly wasted his inheritance and life on all that was vile and unnatural - and seemed to ignore the son who had always remained true to the 'master' and never wavered from his side? 
Because the son who had returned had finally BECOME his own 'master' and finally knew who he was - the other son had always known and had chosen to remain in knowing - the returned son had visited every part of the master's universe and all that could be imagined . . . before he could finally know the fact that . . . he had never really left and that he always was and always had been - AS the master himself. 
The master's joy was in his long-journeyed son knowing finally who he was. He loved the other son equally but the final 'knowing' of his 'wayward' son was a moment of special joy - as it always is. 
This is the same for all of us when we move into higher dimensions and 'meet' our other self-parts within those levels and remember - everything of all of us. What astounding loving joy will be experienced - when we remember how we are together, inextricably and perfectly, once again. And we can do this even now – with the 'parts' of us within our physical bodies – the tiny fission / fusion standing waves of atoms and molecules, the 'wave-people' who live inside us – and look to us to guide and direct them as aspects of Source-Consciousness!
As part of this holographic journey we chose to take, we experience all sorts of 'perceived' disassociation, all sorts of apparent 'separation', all sorts of believed despair and feelings of loneliness, all sorts of everything - and we use this to expand our consciousness of who we truly are. 
We ARE the prodigal son / daughter still 'out there' sleeping in the pig-sty and eating mud and being victims or victimisers at different stages of our journey and we are at different moments controllers of others and controlled by others . . . until we wake up!
And how is 'waking up' achieved? 
It is when enough quantum of Source-Energy can feed through into the grids of our template in each of the dimensions we exist in and also when we have accreted (accumulated) enough 'frequency of consciousness' from the dimensions we have passed through and from the experiences we have created through our 'intention' and our 'attention'.
Over eons of 'Time' (which only exists as a concept down here, nowhere else) some beings, in the midst of their choices for controlling others, have created a 'limited' collective holographic reality-field where Source-Energy has been prevented from flowing correctly through the grids of the whole universe. 
We are within this 'experience' because we chose to be so and each one of us created our own special 'purpose' for ourselves in each of  our 'incarnations'!
Back in this 'Time' some very clever Source-beings (like us) but from higher dimensions, found a way to control the whole time-matrix within which we currently (in this physical expression as ourselves - you and me) exist. 
They stopped much (not all) of the Primal Life-Force Flows from the higher levels of Source from entering into and passing through all the grids in all the planets and stars and therefore into and through ours too via our DNA codings. 
SOME of this Source-Energy of course, still flows but at one stage, one-third of the Source-Energy quantum was prevented from entering the grids of our universe.
This was done by cutting the universal template-grid at the point immediately below the 12th dimensional star-gate – in the 'Cradle of Lyra' near the star Vega. 
Those 'advanced' beings knew exactly how the universal energies operated and how those energies were essentially electro-tonal and electro-magnetic and how these immensely powerful radiation forces of light and sound manifested themselves (through the intention and attention of individual and collective Consciousness) in a holographic reality-field – and how that whole reality-field could be controlled and, in effect, 're-directed'.
The Source-Energy flows, however, happily, began to increase their movement through our universe around 20 years ago and in December 2013 they re-assumed their original and regular passage into everything that is for in 2012 the link between Universal Star-Gate 12 and the rest of our time-matrix was re-connected.
Source-energy was flowing through the rest of the grid and as it is eternal and cannot be completely stopped these flows were sustaining life - but the higher flows - governed by the shield mechanisms, were not flowing and as a result OTHER sources of energy were required and created via unnatural sciences based upon 'physical' science as we know it today - you know - Newton's theories and many others reference such things as 'gravity' etc which is fact down here in our dimensional blend but which was also meant to run in conjunction with the sacred-sciences (how else did the 'ancient' Egyptians build the pyramids 50 thousand years ago? Certainly NOT by a million men lifting bricks and mortar and vast stones for 40 years!)
The unnatural ways of living and thinking and 'believing' (which has the word 'lie' within it!) - became the norm for us all down here and it was formed of a patriarchal control paradigm (partikA / masculine/ electrical /out-moving, creative-expansion intent) which deliberately did away with or severely controlled the matriarchal (particum / feminine / magnetic / in-coming, nurturing-contraction purpose) paradigm with which the 'essence' of our sacred-structure of life was designed.
This had the further effect of slowing the frequencies already slowed by the reduction in life-force flows from beyond the 12th dimension - and so, the story of victims and victimisers and lack and fear and separation and distortion went on and on and on which in turn had the devastating effect of making our personal and collective holograms, our holographic reality-fields, change in accordance with what we thought, said, believed, dreamed and acted out. It became a self-fulfilling holographic prophecy!
We could have spiralled (literally - that's the exact word for it) slowly down into less and less electro-magnetic frequency, dumbed down even further and slower in oscillation and vibration until . . . well, eventually a declined matrix of holographic, low-frequency particles falls into space-dust return - and is eventually, particle by particle, returned into individuated pieces of Consciousness - and begins again - to learn and return - to knowing itself - as Source - the return - again . . . of the prodigal son or daughter.
This 'process' has been going on time-out-of-mind - and always will. It is the very grandest of 'stories' and yet - it is the most 'normal' of tales.
You and I have been 'around' as they say - through all of this in various forms for billions of years Earth-time and the only question now of real relevance is. . . where do you want to go and where do you want to be - and, ultimately, who do you think you are?
As soon as a being KNOWS (or deeply suspects) who they really are - they make different choices and they begin the 'prodigal' return which ends in the most effable, loving, expanded and all-encompassing joy that could ever be experienced; the joy of being loved, completely, unconditionally and in every fibre and particle of all that you are and, indeed, all that IS.
As stated above, a little while ago (as a result of many thousands of years of endeavour from many, many enlightened beings on this planet and beyond it), the Universal Template was repaired at the point of cut and the Primal Life-Force Flows are once again flowing through all our grids.
Our shields are every moment now expanding naturally – literally like breathing - in accordance with real sacred-science - to be able to accept safely more and more Source-Energy - if we so choose. These accepted flows will further expand our knowledge of who we really are and where we have been and what we have experienced.
The whole universe is expanding now - and the parts that choose not to - will slowly decline into what will be the inevitable result of their choices; space-dust return - so that they may, one moment in time, begin again the journey into 'knowing' - and to stepping into the loving arms of all that truly is.